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So I Preached Again...

Written by LaRosa Johnson
Thursday, 13 March 2008
Filed under: Ministry

So I preached again last night (listen here). My pastor was out of town to attend the Chafer Theological Seminary Bible Conference, and had asked me to teach in his absence.

After it was all said & done, I'm still not sure how I feel about it. For one, I've never been (and probably never will be) fond of public speaking and it's something I would rather not do, if given the choice. My character is such that I like to play the wall or work in the background without anyone ever seeing my face. Yet, at the same time, I have this overbearing urge and desire to preach and teach the Word of God to His people, that is 100% undeniable. Sure, I have my web ministry that I use for teaching, but that doesn't feel like enough, I feel like I should be in front of people proclaiming gospel truth (as much as I hate being in front of people and speaking in public). I'm much more comfortable pounding the keys where I have time to think about my words and choose them wisely, as opposed to having to keep my mouth constantly going and trying not to fumble over my words (which I'm always prone to do).

We shall see where time takes me, but I did feel a sense of accomplishment when it was all said & done. I got through all of my material, which I actually had to cut short by way of skipping over the reading of a few passages, so that was a great thing. In that sense, it was mission accomplished and the Word of God went forth. Needless to say, I'm glad that it's the Holy Spirit working through me to change & affect lives, and nothing that I'm doing on my own; I'm glad to just be the tool or voicebox.

God definitely has a sense of humor in all of this... giving someone a gift to do something He knows that they'll hate. I guess in that way, He's always assured of getting the glory, as a result of my blatant weakness. Funny to think about how often I have dreams of being in a pulpit full-time, as much as I loathe the thought of being in front of people speaking on a regular basis. But, again, it's all in God's hands and He already knows what's up.

Oh yeah, by the way, feel free to critique my lesson...